Had a shit show starring my mom today
She called, which I missed, then texted me to call her, which made it seem like an emergency, for real
So I call to see what the emergency was and she was all, will I just wanted to see what was happening
She didn't mean anything at all, it's just her way
She could not know that I had been battling fit four hours by then, on the entire time, and in the verge of losing it, and now was just not the time to feel entitled to talk to me
I snapped at her a bit and she expressed her wound. I barked back that she can't demand to talk then not like how it goes when I do
During the conversation I actually tried to explain exactly why it was a bad time to talk so she could understand that I was not ignoring her, I just literally could not at that moment that she wanted to
And she was all, but don't take it out on meeeee
One more needy person. Of course that's what I need right now as I'm trying to figure out this single partnering deal
I'm an asshole. I know I am. She knows I am. So why is she getting haughty about getting to talk to me? When I actually can't without screaming or cussing?
Fuck today, man.
School starts Monday and i put the babies on the bus and get on with life. It will get better, I know.